Friday, November 17, 2017

Relationship

身邊的人分分合合
很替她開心
替他覺得難過
希望她可以開心
到底為什麼可以這麼燒腦
原以為他們可以走到結婚那一步
沒想到會是這樣的結局
她說她也沒有想過
但還是發生了

我真的很膽小
所以
就這樣到老吧

能不能有一天不用再去顧忌別人的想法
能不能有一天不用再去煩惱人跟人的相處
能不能有一天就只有我自己但我不會孤單

Saturday, November 11, 2017

Thoughts and moment


She helped lots of us speak.
I guess.

Unsatisfied

好像越大就越不容易滿足
越大就越難因為小事開心
卻又越容易為雞毛蒜皮的事情失落、難過

這次很幸運拿到慈祐宮的獎助金
很納悶為什麼她沒拿到
今天早上發現她拿到了龍山寺的

原來是拿到了更好的呢
覺得自己怎麼那麼弱
但又覺得自己好糟糕
朋友拿了獎助金應該是要替她開心啊
畢竟我們的立場一樣
而且她真的很認真

而我也應該要知足的

.

早該知道是這樣的,只是我不願意面對。
罷了。

Monday, November 6, 2017

Debt I could never repay

I miss them, again.
Especially when I saw words so familiar, “妹妹,媽媽已經沒有媽媽了。”
I'm not good at expressing my love and feelings, just the thought of them could make me tear.
It's hard to not mention the materialistic side, somehow speaking of money makes everything sound so cheap. But the willingness to spend on someone is actually the most straightforward scale of one's love.
Studying in Taiwan without any scholarship is already very expensive, not to mention my sis got PTPTN and occasionally worked part time to earn some pocket money. I'm here, spending my parents' money, enjoying my youth while my dad is under the hot sun sometimes risking his life to put food on the table, my mum alone at home trying to occupy her thoughts with mundane household chores, my sis working in a school in rural areas with students getting on her nerves and making her feel frustrated at least once a week. I feel so useless.

Then she said, "Do you want to have braces on?"
A very appealing offer.
But I can't get over the fact that I'd be spending again, so much of their hard earned money just for the sake of my appearance.
I guess this might be the reason I've been having insomnia these days. This dilemma.

Men are selfish.

Sunday, November 5, 2017

Insomnia

Have been having trouble falling asleep these days
No particular reason, I'm quite sure of that.
Maybe it's just because of the time spent on my phone before my sleep

I felt tired, I closed my eyes but they refused to stay closed and I was there staring at the ceiling.
Tried staring blankly until I fall asleep but somehow it doesn't help and I started wandering off.
I picked up my phone again, the cycle repeats.

眼前的路是一片朦朧,你是一陣風但帶來的是更大的烏雲;
朦朧轉為黑暗,原本看得到的已經不見。

Monday, October 30, 2017

Saw that he hurt his hand, he said it was last Friday cz of basketball and the wound was bleeding a lot that time.
Hope it recovers soon.

Wednesday, October 25, 2017

I'm falling for your eyes

I felt the attraction when I looked into your eyes this afternoon 
during our physiology experiment lesson. 

Tuesday, October 17, 2017

下個夏天

剛剛開了暑期課程說明會
簡單來說就是跟我們講說明年還是要當志工哦
這樣
其實已經去了尼泊爾兩年了
花的錢也蠻多的
基於經濟層面上的問題覺得不行再去了
但我該去哪裡呢

Saturday, October 14, 2017

粉紅是設計,生活是愛情

前天在搜尋類似請回答1988的劇時看到了這樣的一篇剖析文

粉紅是設計,生活是愛情

因為阿澤是生活,所以德善最後選擇了他
正煥是粉紅,我們看到的都是編劇設計出來的
這麼一想好像不無道理

生活是愛情。

Thursday, October 12, 2017

區段二

昨天剛考完第二個區段
這次的區段第一次接觸到大體老師、第一上PBL、第一次上病理學
多了好多東西,有時候一起做事的人莫名地讓我感覺壓力
有一天下午對自己覺得失望
已經不記得那天下午天氣怎麼樣
只知道走回宿舍的路上只有我一個人
幸好沒什麼人
我默默地走
一回到沒人的寢室就邊哭邊鬧
但過了不到十分鐘
就跟自己說 該面對人生了
只是那晚喝了一罐啤酒
終於知道為什麼大人喜歡喝酒了
那種瀟灑的感覺是生活中少有的
那種自己獨酌、只有自己懂自己的感覺令人沉迷
喝了一罐我就想睡了
然後連假就開始了

這次考得跟上一次一樣
哈哈哈哈
其實應該算很棒吧
但或許是因為時間大多都投注在唸書上了
覺得不太滿意呢
鄰座的怪同學裡說過 “認真唸書不會辜負我,我會得到成正比的回報。”
大概這樣的意思吧
還是希望自己可以更好一些呢

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前兩天是馥如跟嘉雯的生日
生日真的很美好
我好想念那天晚上
好喜歡你的眼睛
好喜歡你的笑
喜歡你的酒窩

Relationship

身邊的人分分合合 很替她開心 替他覺得難過 希望她可以開心 到底為什麼可以這麼燒腦 原以為他們可以走到結婚那一步 沒想到會是這樣的結局 她說她也沒有想過 但還是發生了 我真的很膽小 所以 就這樣到老吧 能不能有一天不用再去顧忌別人的想法 能不能有一天...